Sunday, March 12, 2006

Chapter 3 Eric

Who’s captain of your love boat?
Laying the foundation for a God-written love story

To be prepared to relate to a member of the opposite sex, you must first learn how to relate to the Creator of the opposite sex.

I came to the point in my life where I wanted to go beyond “”accepting” and truly know for myself, experientially, what I believed in.

Whatever it was, it invited a little mouse of cynicism into my head. And this pesky little rodent scurried around and nibbled away at my innocence and childlike faith. I became a doubter that such extravagant love for Jesus could be real, a doubter that Jesus was really Someone who people would be willing to die for.

That little mouse of cynicism is very common in our generation. For the most part, it has nibbled away at the very concept of who God is and who He wants to be in our lives. What I realized is that God is real whether I believe He is or not. And the day I recognized that, my nettlesome little mouse was caught in an industrial-sized rat trap.

Onto the fuzzy thirteen-inch screen came a weary old man with a face full of wrinkles… I remember longing to have what he had. I know I did not want the imprisonment and tortures he had faced but I wanted the sparkling treasure that emanated from inside the man. He had he ability to view what I would have termed a living hell as the sweetest of blessings.

Sunday, March 05, 2006

I have continued to read the book and i must say today it nearly brought me to tears. I am honosty not sure what is right and what is wrong. But today i read

"Two people who have saved themselves completely- inwardly, outwardly, emotionally, and physically- coming together to love each other for a lifetime with the purest, most uninhibited love imaginable... this is romance in its truest form! This is God's perfect design for you!"

And well this upset me becouse i have been in relationships and i am now where i do give emotionally and with much of my heart to the relationship. I can't help it, i truely do love the men i have and am dating. Sure i know that maybe/most probably with some that it won't work out but i have always been given the outlook that dating was a good thing to help you grow and understand what you need in a relationship. I read this chapter in the book and thought that maybe it was not so. that i should not date but wait till God found me a husband. I would willingly do so if i thought that is what he wanted from me from all of us but i don't know. And i am a person who enjoys the company of others and with so many of my friends dateing it is something that seemed right and natural. I really do love the guy i am with but today i almost began to dout my feelings. Like they were not importent.
Also this passage makes me feel guilty about Robbie, (he is the boy in the first picture) we have broken up becouse he no longer thought of us as getting married. It was sad but i had come to that conclution weeks before we broke up. Should i have stopped the relationship then? Our relationship was the most God centered one i have ever been in, it was almost unreal. The most physical thing we did was hold hands and touch noses. We did try and kiss once but it upset him so much that we never did again and never talked of it either. Now that we are over and i have moved on i feel like i took something from him like i ruined or stole from his wife. It is a terrible feeling. Robbie is the most Godly follower i have ever met. He really was, he thought of me as God's Bride and everything.
The point is that i am extreamly confused. I do not understand what God wants us, as Christians to do in order to please him and have a Godly life and relationship. If kissing, flirting, and loving with your heart a boyfriend is wrong then i am doing something bad and want to stop, even if it hurts. I guess the point is that i am wondering what God wants, I want to fully serve him becouse he is most importent. He is My God, Creator, Protector, My Everything!
Lord help me Love like you created me to.

Monday, January 09, 2006

When God Writes Your Love story

-the ultimate approach to guy/girl relationships

I started reading this book after i got it for christmas and i find it really interesting and well let me tell you about it by talking about parts of the book. Maybe you will find it as interesting as i did/am......

As for God, his way is perfect. Psalm 18:30

This journey is for anyone who is searching for the beuty of truth and lasting love for romance in its purest form, and who is willing to do whatever it takes in order to find it.

This journey is for anyone who will dare to dream beyond the cheap and diluted romance our culture offers and hold out for an infinitely better way. This journey is even for the skeptic who doubts that such a way exists.

If you will trust Him to give Him the pen of your life, you are in for a journey that will forever spoil you for the ordinary. It's a journey on which you will discover perfect love and pure romance as it was truly intended to be.

God wanted me to know that I was following a different path, not for the approval of the Kens and Barbies of this world, but simply to honor and love Him.

Eric said, "But over the past year, God was challenging me to apply my Christianity to every area of my life."

All eyes were wide and all ears were open in wonder and bewildermetn as I concluded, "Kevin, if God had ten women line up in front of me and said, 'Eric, you pick,' I would fall flat on my face before Him and say, 'God, you know me better than I know myself... You Pick!"